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draft found in blogger, date marked 9/9/2007:
was browsing through the archives section of fel's blog and i came across a post that made me miss sec4 times so much:
"I met up with my first row beauties for dinner last night! I miss them (: I miss the freaking indecisive bimbotic QIN, i miss the freaking annoying noisy MEGAN, i miss the freaking idiotic insane GWEN! and soon, I'm going to miss yeo si qin hell loads cos she's flying off to LA soon. I'll really seriously miss the times i spent with her.
Qin : Although you really annoyed me thousands and thousands of times but I'll forgive you (: cos you nvr fails to bring a smile across my face and you're always here to listen to me. Its really heartwarming and nice to sit beside you for a year. Sitting beside you made me feel so dumb and useless, you made lessons more tolerable and fun. You know sometimes you made me go crazy because I dont knw if I should hate or to love you. I wna hate you for being so smart and haha chio but I love you for your cheerfulness and sweetness. I think i love you more, YES I DO. hahaha I really hope you will enjoy your days in LA and you must keep in touch with me when you come back ok? We shall train tramp and dance our cheerleading steps all over again! I'll really miss you hell loads, really really! I SWEAR :( the four first row beauties must celebrate each other's bdaes every year okayyy?Dont cry when you leave ok, because il be smiling for you. youre heading to a happy place in LA and youre future will be very bright (: Cheers! I love my right-side sitting partner 06 and I'll always do, i swear :)"
seriously, the best time of my life. reading shanny's blog made me realise i'm always thinking about the past too. it's like i'm living in the past. it just seems so difficult to let go of those memories. and it certainly ain't of any aid to helping me feel better about life. i should/must really come to terms with reality, accept my life for what it is now. but that's like a big big tough thing to do, sighz. oh damn it what's my problem man. one minute i feel i've finally managed to accept my situation and face it; stop comparing it to any other possible life i might have had been leading instead. but the next moment, the same old thoughts come flooding in involuntarily again. i don't wanna keep complaining, but it's not easy at all to block all these "undesirable" thoughts out. i wish i could toooooo, oh sigh
anyhow i dreamt of nic gwen bong yesterday. haha the four of us were in some challenge together and we won haha. it was those adventurous kinda challenge thingy but i was the scardey cat of the group! it was so surreal. ah, i miss you guys bong gwen nic. we should really sign up for some challenge together next time!! haha -
i still miss sec four life, miss sn school life, miss my family, miss all my friends in sg, miss gwenny, meggie, bel, sexy, bong, jae, fel, mimi, jan, shann, fong, cris, ru, nic etc and i can't wait to go back to see them!! but yay i'm glad i've grown and matured!! that i'm happy with my life now :) |